it's so hard to get by

highhhhhhhh

Mon, 19 Jul 2004 04:05:23 GMT

getting drunk this weekend with the friends and the cute kids!!!!!!

be there or be rhombus

kaboom

Wed, 14 Jul 2004 23:29:30 GMT

the thunder kinda is making today really romantic..that's why i wasn't home all day. <33
i'm loving every last bit of my life right now..

it's raining men..

Mon, 12 Jul 2004 22:17:31 GMT

i love it. i'm finally happy. i don't need bren to be happy. i got a special someone who was there the whole time. we're not allowed to say who it is though because if 2 certain people find out we're dead. lol <33
anyway..not much happening. starting my back to school shopping this weekend i think with jess and chrissy in NYC. yippieee i love it, i wanna live there.

so me and hp.. he's so adorable..<33

ron wanna go to the mall like friday or soemthing?

... :'(

Sat, 10 Jul 2004 04:59:52 GMT

well yeah, today two immature people went throat throat. (me and brennan) and well he thinks he won because he went on to my screen name and changed the password...to amysucks. how mature is that. i think all because i was hurt by something that some girls away message said. it was something like: girl: brennan silly u know i love you Brennan: i love utoo babe and i just wanna pick you up and kiss you all over
i'm sorry but if you just broke up with someone like a few days earlier wouldn't that make you upset. my life sucks right now..i fucking want to be with Brennan and I doubt thats gonna happen because i'm stupid and had to mess everything up. seriously if i could go back i would change everything i did wrong. i wish he could understand i care about him more than i have ever cared about anyone. i would do so much for him. that doesn't matter anymore does it?

well i gotta get sleep. gotta wake up @ 9 go to bed, bath, and beyond then be at jess's by 11. stay there till like 11 at night.blahhhh. see yah

TACO ACOT COTA OTAC TACO

Sat, 10 Jul 2004 00:08:55 GMT

I just spilled taco all over my room. that makes me all happy inside

...........

Thu, 08 Jul 2004 02:39:41 GMT

So uhm..life, yea that shit, it sucks ass.

i believe in a thing called love just listen to the rhythem of my heart

Wed, 07 Jul 2004 04:34:57 GMT

howdy children..whats shaking. not too much going on around here. tomorrow, or should i say today erica is coming over and we're going shopping!!!! woo. were gonna buy pretty things cuz we're pretty gals. teeheehee. anywho i think before we do that we're gonna go to christy's because we havent seen her in like weeks and thats no good.
other than that my lifes been pretty boring, havent been doing too much because im punished still. only 1 more week if im good. i been kinda upset-ish because u know brennan dumped me and all, i think i'll just use my pimp skills to get his ass back. lol (im just kidding) anyway i heard that emo kids can't be pimps.. ;-) only some would understand...

schoobie do wop do

Mon, 05 Jul 2004 19:40:00 GMT

today i was supposed to get a door for my room, but of course that plan fell through, damn dad. now...i'm hungry and my parents are trying to tell me to eat left over chinese food, i didn't want it last night what makes them think i'm going to want it tonight. whateverrr
so yea, thats it, i went to a party at nick's house last night and then hung out with craig and chris and that was all for my 4th of july. (besides getting chinese food)

whatever......

Sat, 03 Jul 2004 04:27:20 GMT

so i'm slowly losing all of them...
first stefanee goes..and although i don't act like it, it really did hurt, and yes it still does. it's never easy to lose a best friend. now i'm losing brennan and that hurts too. no one there to love you no matter what happens, no one to talk to late at night about crazy erotic things. no one to tell you love them and truely mean it... it was all my fault for being stupid. i guess i really do deserve this... =/
whatever..

everyday is so wonderful...

Wed, 30 Jun 2004 19:10:09 GMT

laa la la

Quiz Results:
Flirting Level - 70%
Kissing Level - 39%
Cuddling Skill Level - 100% =)
Sex Skill Level - 93%
Why the love you - you are too sexy for words.
Why they hate you - you can be too selfish.

look at that..

can't make up my mind........

Sun, 27 Jun 2004 03:26:19 GMT

X imXaMaZiNg x [11:11 PM]: all you do is complain
X imXaMaZiNg x [11:11 PM]: i cant do anything to make u happy
IadoreBrennan [11:11 PM]: uyhr fucking gay
IadoreBrennan [11:11 PM]: go kill urself
IadoreBrennan [11:11 PM]: im not even complaining
IadoreBrennan [11:11 PM]: i hope u die
Auto response from X imXaMaZiNg x [11:11 PM]: need me - call
IadoreBrennan [11:11 PM]: fucking put up an awaymessage
IadoreBrennan [11:12 PM]: an be gay again tonight
IadoreBrennan [11:12 PM]: everynight ur gay it jus gets one day closer

people wonder why i'm hardly ever happy anymore...there that explains a big chunk of it.

no, ricky, i don't love you, i don't want you to love me..feels wonderful to get that off my chest. lmao
SYC orangemen 87 (12:12:12 AM): i wanna love u
SYC orangemen 87 (12:27:04 AM): i love u
SYC orangemen 87 (12:27:43 AM): listen go out wit me i show u things
SYC orangemen 87 (12:28:32 AM): listen fuck ur boyfriend hes a bitch
SYC orangemen 87 (12:28:36 AM): go out wit me

so yea..upset, pissed off, gloomy, sad....whatever..pick your adjective

mmmmmm......spiffy

Fri, 25 Jun 2004 17:37:15 GMT

i just got a nice cold shower and boy was it yummy...and now im waiting to hear from either erica or christy about whats going on today with the movies and such...i<3the notebook!!!!
then later i'm taking chrissy out to celebrate, getting her something to eat and buy her something, but of course taking her with me cause she and i don't have the same taste and if i were to buy her something it of course would be something that i want. heh
welll i think thats about it
i do got some other things on my mind, but i guess we'll just say that they're kinda personal..and i don't feel like getting on that boat.

mother f*ing pissed off

Tue, 22 Jun 2004 15:44:06 GMT

i wanna kill ms.derito. she gave me a 66 cause she doesnt belive me that fucking john stole my notebook and did something with it. no ones gonna see me this summer. my dad is gonna be mega pissed. i just wanna cry. oh wait, i just did.
today is gonna be the last time i can go out for a while, before dad ges home anyway. i just got home from christy's. me erica and sarah slept over. lit socks on fire..yah know, the usual.
i don't think dad's gonna let me go camping with ash now because of fucking derito. man i wanna kick her fat ass, i mean...fuck.

well i guess thats about it. i can't do anything about talking to her bout my grade because im 14 no one can believe me even though i wasnt allowed out like 2 weeks ago because i had to work on my notebook, it took me like 8 hours but i got it done. but okay lets not believe amy. fuck everyone

this is it

Mon, 21 Jun 2004 04:07:07 GMT

i think i got lots on my mind right now..i can't take it

i had a fun day today, or should i say yesterday.....i went to grandpop's cut the grass for the first time in my life and i have to say, i did a great job. it took a whilecause he has like an acre of land..but its cool. then me, my dad, 2 uncles, 2 cousins and 2 aunts cleaned the front and back yards and cleaned the house up a bit. looks spiffy. hung out with matt say jess's blurple car....very cute

so i think thats it, don't feel like talking about brennan and how i'm mad at him.... so thats all gravy. g'night

bllahhhhhh

Sat, 19 Jun 2004 19:54:22 GMT

well today was alright (so far) i woke up at 9 because dad's gay and has to work on the yard with all those loud things all early in the morning. then i went to wawa got some breakfast went with chrissy to the car wash for her first time..lol boy oh boy was that something i'm gonna remember...woooo. then i went to the car wash with my mom for the first time. geez, at least she could do it though.we can't blame chris and mom, it was their first time. lmao. then i went shopping, went to k-mart went shopping again..blah blah blah
now i'm back here with nothing left to do till like 6.yea thats only like 2 hours, i think i'm gonna go to sleep. but i'm not tired, i think i'll go to cvs. hmm.. yea

79 days till school starts.....haaaa i got this ish down. =D

So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same
[. s u g a r c u l t .]

soo..uhm...yea

Sat, 19 Jun 2004 03:26:55 GMT

today was hot. beyond hot. so i was like, i think i'm gonna go to the mall. so yeah, me and chrissy went shopping, i didn't really see anything i liked, which sucked. we gotta get dresses for uncle kevins wedding and buy presents for matt and jess's wedding, i don't have this kinda money, i think i'm gonna get a job. but where......
well i gotta go so mom doesn't get mad because she thinks the heat will make my computer blow up (and she's probably right) sooooo good night and have a wonderful weekend. =)

hey amy your so fine, your so fine you blow my mind

Thu, 17 Jun 2004 00:24:52 GMT

well....today was fun i went shopping at like 11 and got back around 2, but all i got was a couple pairs of jeans a shirt shoes, a purse socks a brite pink belt...and i think thats it, but it was cool. it was the victorias secret semi annual sale and i got lotss there. and lets see, now im eating yogurt, its so yummy. i think. later on tonight me and mom are gonna do some shopping at cvs. its awesome with chrissy's discount and shit. so yep. thats about it..
tomorrows the last day of school im gonna miss those kids.then next monday i think, its the party at christy's house. woohoo.well seeee yah later alligators

go amy your so fine, your so fine you blow my mind... woah, i'm cool now

i like me with my new glasses

Wed, 16 Jun 2004 00:08:57 GMT

i look pretty spiffy with my glasses on. heh but of course i don't have to wear them to school until next year because i dont have school tomorrow and i'm contemplating not going on thursday, but i kinda wanna see the friends and stuff before i see them in the summer...? that sounds pretty confusing, but thats cool. anywho i took my engish and geometry exams today and i think i did pretty well on english and i think i got like a 70 in geometry...but it's okay..=/ well i'm gonna go eat and bother my dad about things like when am im getting my contacts and the new internet thing instead of gay aol. welp. seeee yahhh

got my computer back!!!!!!!!!

Tue, 15 Jun 2004 00:16:30 GMT

i knew my mom couldnt last...so i asked for my computer back and i got it, actually she only took the power cord but you need that to charge the battery so it didn't do much good without the cord. anywho...history and bio finals were today, i got a 91 in history and im scared to find out about bio....=( i hope i passed.... so i better go study for english and geometry my last ones.. then i have wednesday off then me and erica are cutting histiry and english on thursday to go across the steet and get razzles!!!! (first they're candy, then they're gum!)
so i'll catch you kiddies laterrrr....

interesting...conversation....with my "friend" stefanee

Thu, 10 Jun 2004 00:46:25 GMT

x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: okay... i dont like u because
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: 1. when u went to see secret window u lied
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: 2. me n erica n sarah made our "posse" n u were like noo0o i dont wanna join n tried to get us to beg u
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: 3. if i do or say something ditsy ur like stef shut up or say somethin rude but when erica does u think its the funniest thing ever
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: 4. u always wait for erica in the hall (even b4 we stopped talkin) n u never waited for me ever
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: 5. u always snap when i ask wuts wrong when im trying to be a good friend and honestly I DONT CARE
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: 6. u always act all pissy when im around like i put u in a bad mood
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: 7. u never listen when i talk especially on the phone ull either like start talkin to other ppl in ur house or just say u werent listenin
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: 8. u always try to outdo me if im bored u have to be boreder if i had fun somewhere u had more fun etc.
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: 9. u always give me dirty looks in the hallway for no reason
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: 10. u never buy me presents ever and i always buy u presents
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: 11. u dont kno how to share at all
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: 12. u always used to tell me to come over n ull say u have food n when i get there ur all rude when i ask for something to eat
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: 13. u hardly ever offer to have ur parents drive us ne where n my mom drove u to and from the mall every week for like 4 months straight
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: 14. u always give my mom an attitude
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: like everytime she would see you
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: thats why she doesnt like you
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: no one in my family does because they all said ur rude
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: and my mom doesnt want to come home from work make dinner and then drive us to the mall either but she did it there and back every week
smAnAnAs: no one said she had to.. goin to the mall every week wasnt exactly the most fun thing
smAnAnAs: its fine 1 week but like 10 after that is kinda old
smAnAnAs: i dont like hangin gout with all ur skater friends
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: and wut are you?
smAnAnAs: i dont believe in human classificaion
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: cuz last i heard u called urself a skater too
smAnAnAs: well then ill go out and buuy a skateboard
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: well thats just nice now isnt it
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: thats wut i was waitin for u to do
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: cuz u were callin urself 1 but u dont skate n u wore surfer clothes... i was pretty confused
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: especially since this all happend over nite
smAnAnAs: oh it did
smAnAnAs: yes i remember that night
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: but u kno im done talkin to you now so good bye
smAnAnAs: once again people change
smAnAnAs: obviously u did
smAnAnAs: cause normally u would overlook the stupid things and accept a person for who they are
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: I AM DONE TALKING TO YOU I DONT CARE WHAT YOU HAVE TO SAY U PISS ME OFF ALL THE TIME N I PISS YOU OFF SO WHY DO U KEEP IMING ME STOP BOTHERING ME AND GO HAVE FUN WITH ERICA
smAnAnAs: alrighty roonie, see yah tomorrow
smAnAnAs: :-D
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: dont even... cuz ull be mad if i do
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: im scared
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: no were not workin this out im sick of bein best friends with some one who acts like my opponent all the time
smAnAnAs: i never said i wanna be friends im saying i dont wanna be enemies
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: were not working nething out
smAnAnAs: so ud rather have an enemy than take 10 minutes outta ur day to work something out
smAnAnAs: w/e..ur decision
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: work wut out?
smAnAnAs: u need to prioritize
smAnAnAs: our problems
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: excuse me?
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: i need to prioritize
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: omg gurl there is something really wacked with u
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: ha
smAnAnAs: how do i have to prioritize?
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: n we dont have problems i dont like u u dont like me there
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: got that worked out
smAnAnAs: thats a problem, i may not like u but i dontn wanna be on ur shit list for a dumb reason
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: yea cuz u never being a real friend n stabbing me in the back is a really dumb reason
smAnAnAs: thats not true, when did i stab u in the fuckin back?
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: idk maybe when u lied and told ppl i said i was grounded when i wasnt n we didnt even talk so i wouldnt hang out with u guys
smAnAnAs: even erica is saying u told her u were grounded
smAnAnAs: ur only trying to make me look bad
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: wow that fits the definition of a best friend exactly
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: when was this?
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: no i dont have to try u already do
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: why wouldnt i be allowed to go to the movies when i was supposed to be goin to christys house?
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: n now ur changin ur story... did u forget to call me or did u really call n i really said i was grounded stick with one story
smAnAnAs: i didnt call because u were grounded
smAnAnAs: u even told erica thatr
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: like i said i dont have to try to make u look bad u do it urself
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: when did i tell erica that
smAnAnAs: well let me pull a date outts her ass real quick
smAnAnAs: january 27th at 8:37 and 13 seconds PM
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: we talked on the phone u said u were gonna call back n let me kno wut time we were goin to christys house... u never called so i called u back n u sed u were at the movies n u forgot
smAnAnAs: well i did, i totally forgot how would u kno if i did or not
smAnAnAs: ur not me
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: and then the next weekend we were at the diner after cotillion and sarah and erica asked why i was grounded
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: now ur switching stories again
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: did u forget or did u just not call because u "knew i was grounded"
smAnAnAs: theres both stories because i had no reason to remember cause u were grounded
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: ur just diggin urself a deeper hole
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: but i wasnt grounded
smAnAnAs: then dont tell ppl u are
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: i didnt tell anyone i was grounded
smAnAnAs: u didnt bring this up until now
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: try again
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: smAnAnAs: she said she realized ur shock and didnt get it cause u even said u were grounded
smAnAnAs: yea
smAnAnAs: thanks
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: obviously that means it was brought up b4 now
smAnAnAs: i knew i said that
smAnAnAs: no she just said that
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: well at leats u kno something... i was beginning to doubt u did
smAnAnAs: shut the fuck up
smAnAnAs: im in all the same classes as u and im doin just fine if u didnt notice
smAnAnAs: so im not fuckin stupid
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: oh im sorry i though u failed last marking period... oh wait no that must have been me
x0sNuGgLeBeArx0: ur lyin so much u dont even kno wut ur talkin about anymore so just eat my pussy

wow..this is just like bestfriends...=) so we had this nice conversation and i think were best friends again. and erica helped me out. well see yahhhh.

jellybeans

Tue, 08 Jun 2004 03:12:12 GMT

today i was doing things that were very productive. i looked up "your mom" on google and then looked up jellybeans and then i decided that i wanted to have odd conversations with people about jellybeans. i honestly think i'm quite normal, other people think differnetly. anywho... i got taco bell and i made sure my tacos didn't have lettuce on them because thats icky and then i attempted to read great expectations for english, that didn't go over so well. i got another kitten today..i call her olivia because i liek that name, and chrissy does too. everyone else calls her something different. her and oscar are adapting pretty well to the change. i'm attempting to use a larger vocabulary tonight because it makes me sound sophisticated.
tomorrow we're disecting a pig in bio and i really don't wanna go to school because i have bad cramps and a major test that i didn't even read the book that it's on. i can tell now that tomorrow isn't gonna be the best day.... i think i need to get some sleep because i need my rest. so i guess i'll get back to this later children. good night. i love you brennan <3

and you stood at your door with your hands on my waist and you kissed me like you meant it

Sat, 05 Jun 2004 19:10:33 GMT

it's a wonderful, if you didn't notice. i mean, i wanted to play tennis but of course i can't because it's raining but i don't care because i'm getting another kitten either today or tomorrow!!! hooorah. this one's gonna be a girl. me and chrissy wanna name her olivia but matt said no. what a party pooper.
soo anyway.. i got back from erica's not too long ago, but i was mad because we were about to make blueberry thingys and then chrissy called and said that matt was on his way to pick me up. oh well.. i think i'm going to see harry potter with ronnie today! i think i want chirsty to go too, because i told her that we could hang out yesterday but then iwent to erica's and now i feel bad.. i wanna see hp sooo bad, i mean c'mon harry potter what a sexy, muscular beast!!!! lmao....woooo
well i gotta go clean up the kitchen from the pancakes i made and then i'm gonna play with oscar. i love my kitten and i cant wait til i get the other one!!!! :-D (happyface) have a wonderful day kids and be safe!!!!!!!!!!!

hola senor el gato

Fri, 04 Jun 2004 16:43:02 GMT

haha. today was pretty alright, it was a half day and stuff so of course it couldn't be that bad. i can't wait until tonight, it's gonna be f-u-n. i think me and erica are going to watch Texas chainsaw massacre and Along came Polly. then i guess i'm gonna sleep over there, that should be fun, i mean erica is a nifty kid. then tomorrow i think i'm going over christy's and we're gonna party harty. but it's gonna be sad, because Gio is sick and we won't get kisses from him. he's my new love!! i mean it's not that bad, im 14, hes 4..10 years isn't much! then on sunday i think erica os going shopping with me and my mommy because i neeeed new clothes, i gotta look good this summer...even though i don't have a boyfriend to impress... (sadface) i miss that kid..anywho.... i can't wait until summer. i think i'm going on vacation with ashlee and of course we're gonna go to the beach a few times too. i need to get a tan and stuff, look all good so when brennan comes back i'm all spiffy looking. that would be cool, if i looked pretty for once.. cause i think i'm ugly, no, scratch that, i know i'm ugly, but not as bad as chrissy... ;-) i think i'm gonna go eat and take a shower and do my chores so i can go out tonight and have lots of fun!!!!
i lost my cat again - i wanna name him *senor el gato* which means mr.the cat!! haha. seeeee yahhhh

wooooo

Thu, 03 Jun 2004 20:12:50 GMT

today was like amazingly boring. i thought i was gonna murder *someone*.. erica knows who i'm talking about. anywho..then i got home and i lost my kitten, i mean we got it like 2days ago..you dont just lose a kitten, but then i found him under my bed.
then i talked online, talked to bren on the phone and blah blah blah, and now, i'm here. woah if u ask me thats exciting.
well i better go and do some homework because im failing english - the one class u can't fail. bLah.
seeee yahhh